Escaped Wage Slave is on hold.
Writing once relieved my anguish, now it enhances it. I'm yelling into a void.
I'm terribly lonely, sad and depressed. I'll just remove myself further from the scene. I have nothing new to write. Perhaps I'll come back writing about fluffy clouds, singing birds and butterflies. But the clouds will be man-made, the birds won't be singing but complaining about the cell tower and all the butterflies will be dead.
There is no one in my life that doesn't have Stockholm Syndrome or happily tolerating their oppression. No one to talk to, all by myself... as the song goes. My disappointment in my fellow citizens is profound. They don't deserve my company. I wonder how they walk without a backbone.
I'll be cancelling the internet connection subscription and use the $80 a month to buy books. Real paper books. The amount of deceit and manipulation on the Web is greater than TV. People love it. I haven't been getting along with people since the advent of the Smart Phone. That device magnified gossip and robbed people of their personality. Do people have personality anymore? Mine isn't wanted.
It's time to cleanse the soul, ask forgiveness for my transgressions and work on forgiving those with such ignorance and arrogance. I sure hope the Second Coming happens because a comforting story is all I have to hang my hat on. My Going will happen soon, I will make it as natural and peaceful as I can unless I am violated by a needle. Then something will burn down and suicide-by-cop may be an option.
Thank you all for visiting my site.
Wes
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I would like to think there are many people worth knowing.. Many with a backbone who are very unhappily enduring their oppression. I too am shocked and surprised at how few those many seem to be. I'm still not sure what about all this is sapping my will as well. It seems kind of similar to the caged bird that wills itself to die. Are we that fragile? I have a hard time with life being or at least seeming to be nothing but a struggle. Are we just order imposed on chaos, etc...
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I wish you well. When it feels like there's nothing much to live for, maybe that's when we are most free.
Don't use the internet to not feel lonely. Join a church, become a part of the community in which you live. Ideas and views are important but so is merely being human. If you've concluded that smartphones are making humans less human, that's a good conclusion to make. You've reached that conclusion yet are disappointed that you are lonely and your internet blog is unfulfilling. Don't have conflicted feelings about that. Move on dot org, be human.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Heartfelt wisdom. It's been a hard transitional year. Moving on is the point.
DeleteI just found your site. Don't leave. I'll talk to you. Let's talk about conspiracy theories and pits of vipers.
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