I enjoy making music for making music's sake. I sing my songs, though I'm not sure anyone listens to them. There is no CD sales, gigging, tours, or money making in my future with my adequate skills. I don't have that POV. It seems money takes the fun out of making music.
An audience of grateful listeners are far and few between. I hardly get feedback from my fellow/she-fellow musicians. I've learned to take in cutting remarks and understand most people are rude, unable to communicate except by put-downs. It's an energy vampire thing and inversely they are stealing my energy, so I may have 'left it all on the court', so to speak, and he/she is munching on the leftovers. A back-handed compliment, but a compliment nonetheless. I do get kind compliments from people, just enough to blow up my ego tire.
Constructive criticism is welcome if it's not picayune stuff (like your guitar wasn't in tune, lol). I'm new to performing, though hardly nervous anymore. Open mics mostly, I'm getting accustomed to being around The Performer, how annoying they can be, only balanced by their talents and fun they bring. I've seen and heard some amazing singing and playing people bring to share. I'm patient with the beginner and always offer positive support. When theater surrounds the music, it's a horse of a different color. Neurotic Ego showcases; End result, Rock Star wanna-be. I'd like to think I'm there for the song and let it sell itself.
I've always been the guy at the party that pointed out the turd in the punchbowl. I've been bringing a minority opinion into a hostile audience for a long time. Large groups of stupid people don't scare me, dangerous as they may be. Most people aren't even in the same room with you. Afterwards, if I do find someone to discuss what I was singing about, they don't get it... or don't want to talk about it. Avoidance, it's what we do. Most seem to want familiarity and nostalgia songs by a walking/talking jukebox. My motivations is to be heard, not so much to hit my Like button.
I'll continue to sing my songs. It brings me joy, if no one else.
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